Thursday, October 29, 2009

Clubbing - Right or Wrong?

So last night I went partying at Barzing for Sonia's birthday. It was the first that I actually partied in a bar and drank Tequila and Sex on The Beach. All paid by Keith. The last time I went with my cousins and I wasn't close to some of them so I didn't really dance and stuff.

Reasons for going Clubbing - Wanna try something new, out of curiosity, wanna dance!, so I can have my own opinion on clubbing.

When I got there, I just feel that I can't dance can you dance with people you don't really know? In the group, I only knew Sonia and Faisal well. The rest, I just met them so I'm a bit reserved cos you can't just trust people that instant. Plus they're guys and I didn't go with my boyfriend. I don't want to give them the impression that I'm available and it is not like me to throw myself at guys. I don't do that.

After the shot of Tequila, I kinda loosen up a bit and danced. =D I love the dancing part. And I do know how to enjoy myself. And Keith bought Sex on The Beach for Sonia and I. Still I can say that I hate alcohol because 1) it tastes like cough syrup 2) it has a burning and warm feeling inside my tummy that I don't like 3) it's not good for my voice 4) the feeling of getting tipsy is not pleasant. It's not my first time consuming alcohol but still....I never liked it and never will. It still intrigues me why people enjoy drinking it and getting drunk. The feeling is so not nice. Maybe because I like myself the way I am. I dunno.... And I don't think I can ever understand.

After the whole dancing session, we stopped and that's when I realized that I was getting tipsy and at my limit. I know I have to stop drinking. Kinda relieved that it was over then until I heard one of the gang suggested to go for another round at Monster Tongue. I was like "Oh man.....". I couldn't drive for a while cos I needed to get used to the spinning thing going on in my head so I let Sonia do the driving to Monster Tongue. In my tipsy-ness, Sonia asked me if I enjoyed myself and whether I'll be joining them in the future. I just honestly said "No.". Surprisingly I'm very honest in my tipsy-ness. But I have to be honest there and then. I don't mean to ruin her birthday and all....but this thing is not my thing. When we reached Monster Tongue, I just told them "Okay, I'm going home. See you guys!". Come on, I live with my parents! And I'm driving! I can't go home in a drunken state. My mom is cool about me going out late BUT I must not break her trust. If I go home much later AND in a drunken state, I'll be saying goodbye to her trust, goodbye to going out and goodbye car. So after explaining, they understand and let me go.

On my way home, I was telling God to keep me thinking straight while driving cos I need to get home safe and sound. Thank God I did. While driving, I was analysing the whole thing that happened. Honestly, when one of them suggested Monster Tongue, the Holy Spirit kinda prompted me to go back. Cos the moment that suggestion came, "Go back" kept resounding in my head. Also, I decided that though it was fun, I am not going to do this ever again. It's compromising my belief. And I am being among people who don't know God and follow Him. It reminded me of the Isrealites. God commanded them to drive out all the Ammonites, the Jebusites and the Peruzzites but they didn't. The consequences of what they did was they defiled themselves by inter-marrying with those pagan nations and the Isrealites began worshipping their gods. That was why God commanded them to eliminate everything even their children and women, it is so that the Isrealites will not worship other gods. And there I was with people of the world. Now, I may say that there's nothing wrong....I won't get drunk....I won't go over. But I know that if I go on doing this, I will say a different thing. Run from temptation, as said in Proverbs. What I see in there...girls indirectly selling themselves and of course, the excessive drinking and smoking, it is nothing a follower of Jesus Christ do! To continue going there would mean I am compromising and saying 'it's okay'. I do not want to compromise. I do not want to give up my faith. I am willing to stop clubbing and biar jak orang pikir aku tok alim. But I will never give up Jesus for anything. It's not worth it.

The Bible never said "Thou shalt not go clubbing". But I have my own opinion. If you want to go clubbing, go ahead. But I have made my own decision. I will not continue going clubbing. I have many reasons. Well, I guess by now you should know my ultimate reason for not continuing. For Christians, I kind of walking on a fine line and playing with fire. The Devil's all out to take us away from God. So....gotta be careful and make your stand.

Anyway, I can's so easy to do all those bad stuff and get you conscientiousness seared. In one night, I learned all that. And to do what you do, I can do too. But to be a Christian, it's not easy. Stuff like these, I just have to give it up. Cos it's not leading me to the right direction. And I challenge you to be me. It's not going to be easy to take up the cross. I can cheat in my exams if I wanted to and easily too. But I didn't. I could've swindled people and take advantage of them but I didn't. All because of the fear and reverence of the Lord. Fear and reverence is like.....towards your parents. You still obey them because you love them. Same case as this. So....try be me for a day. Can you handle it?

Swinburne Dance Party 2009

Hey guys! How you've been?

A lot of stuff going on but I couldn't blog about em due to crazy internet connection the past few days.

The Dance Party

So last weekend I went to Swinburne's Dance Party. It was fun! But what I didn't like about it is that in the midst of the songs, there will be some people stealing the limelight. Some people will be doing their moves and people would stop dancing and just go around them and watch them do a showdown.'s a dance party. EVERYONE should be dancing. EVERYONE should be participating in dancing...not just a few people.

People dancing on stage.

People watching those limelight stealers.

I enjoyed dancing with Mel, Joyce and Sonia. Man....Joyce and Mel can really move! And we don't even need booze to get all crazy and have moves. =]

Oh, and being a Swinburne student, we have a lot of benefits. We get discounts at certain bookstores, we've got the best facilities, great lecturers. the can see people actually studying and doing discussions. Awesome study environment. We even get discounts at certain cafes like 5 Loaves Cafe. Uhm....and that night, they told us that Swinburne students have discounts at Monster Tongue on Friday and Saturday nights. I wonder if it applies to all students but...discounts are discounts.

After the party, I bumped into my friend and she asked me whether I'm going to Monster Tongue after that. Like duh, of course not! I was on my way to Kado. Finally I tried that place. My.....the burgers are huge there! Haha!!! It's my first time eating a burger with fork and knife. I usually use my fingers. But in the end, I used my fingers. I just can't enjoy it eating burgers that way. Some pics while we were there...
My Beef Burger

Faisal taking a BIG bite! xD

Arvin and Faisal tengah suk makan.

JD took this pic.

Really...such an awesome evening spent with friends and my beloved. I love them and I love him so much! Such company is precious. =) Again, love you guys! =D

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

New Toys

I got myself a new toy today! And I'm so totally syked about it that I just gotta tell the whole world!! Today.....I got myself ..................

MAKEUP BRUSHES!! Yahooo...........
I really love the makeup bag that it comes with it.

Got these darlings at Elianto for RM62. It's a lot cheaper compared to The Face Shop. But I believe you can find cheaper elsewhere but I do believe in quality. So Elianto should be alright. I decided that I like doing makeup even more after St. Faith's 40th anniversary dinner. The Youth Ministry did a skit and we did some makeup. However, my tools were limited so I couldn't do much. These tools are to serve me creatively. I really wana venture into stage makeup. And maybe you'll find this blog interesting, Kandee The Makeup Artist . She's got really interesting stage makeup going on there and I'd like to learn more.

More pics of my darling new toys...

My weapon of choice. The Face Brush.
I'ma smack yer zits with it.

As you can see, my photos were not edited. And so, you can see that my face is red and stuff but I don't mind. I shall show you how I really do look like without my makeup. I think I look beautiful just the way I am. And so do you! Also, I didn't change my shirt for this. I know the whole world is watching but there's a lot more important things in this world than to look saving people. That's more important. =)

Monday, October 19, 2009

This Weekend...

So what am I gonna do this weekend? Last weekend I was forced to stay at home to try and complete my lab reports. So no going out that weekend. But this weekend I shall reward myself with going out after this week's load of tests and such. Boo.... I don't wana work.... I wana playy.... Anyway, this weekend, I decided to........ Oh wait. Before I continue. You all know how I like rock music right? Like Paramore and such. Well....guess what I decided to go to this weekend?

Yep...Swinburne's Dance Party!! ROFLMAO!!!

Believe it, I'm going. For the adventure and to hang out with my friends. =)
Non-Swinburnians can come too. Just come to out uni to get it! =D
See ya there!
For those who's going that is..

Sunday, October 18, 2009

To Tingle Your Taste Buds...

Hello all! Hope you had a nice Sunday. My Sunday's great as always, kick start the day with God. And after that fellowship with friends. It never gets old. After church will always be lunch and today, we tried some place new recommended by Aunty Alice. The place is called Kopitiam No.6, located at Jalan Song. We had some claypot stuff and it taste really good. We had Chicken Curry, Lamb Soup and Pork Leg. Yum..yum....

The Chicken Curry...this was my favourite! They added curry leaves to it which made it have that beautiful fragrant that makes me want to eat it!

Lamb Soup

Pork Leg!! We Dayaks must have this...

Later at night, my mom was having the 'Lazy Sunday' syndrome so we went out to eat. Went to Family Cafe at Hui Sing Commercial Centre and had the most amazing meal in the world. Seriously...nothing beats a simple Chinese restaurant serving non-halal dishes. All-in-all, it costs us about RM100++ for 6 people. So that means, RM20++ per person! Couldn't get any better... I remember St. Faith's 40th anniversary dinner at 4 points was terrible! And it's RM45 per person. I can honestly tell you that I can cook a better soup than what they made that day. It was pathetic. Anyways, snapshots of the food....

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I Will Run This Race

I was watching a video given to me by Tommy about Moscow Malaysia Fellowship. And a big thanks to him for showing me that video. Because I was touched and encourage and somehow convicted as well.

Moscow Malaysia Fellowship is a group of Medical students who have a heart for God. That's the simplest definition of it. And one of our youth member, Herman, is studying there and joined this fellowship. They started out small but they had a heart for God. And because of that, their numbers grew and kept growing! I admire such faithfulness and I admire how they love God and how they serve Him...and most of they put God first in their life! As much as it amazes me, I am put to shame as well.

The vid makes me wonder how enthusiastic I really am for the work of God. Makes me wonder why do I keep living for myself when I should go and show and tell people about my God. Makes me wonder how far would I go to saving a life. So many people still have not known this guy called Jesus and are on their way to death....and I'm not carrying out my job to tell them about Him!

Many times, these things would remind me of my Youth Fellowship. How long will we go on like this? Stagnant. Seeing the same faces. How long? It discourage me most of the time. I really wonder how to tell people to come to youth and learn about God. Am I not friendly enough? Maybe. I don't know. At times, I get so burned out, I just wana give up. Like up and getting distracted by other things. And fulfilling my selfish desires. I believe there is more to do. But I guess....after watching the video, the question I should be asking myself is.... Is my heart for God in the process? Sometimes, I get complacent. And going to youth or GB is another job for me. Just to attend. It shouldn't be that way! I should be excited! Thrilled to come every week to enjoy the fellowship of my brothers and sisters in Christ! Even if we are few...we shouldn't be discouraged by numbers......

I forgot how it is like to be in a youth fellowship where learning and worshipping God is fun anymore. Being one of the leaders can be mind blowing... Lord, I want that enthusiasm and that love for You like they have...or even better than what they have. Nothing in this world could matter apart from You. And I want You to be my first love! Having You is to have and fame....brings me nothing but death still. Help me to set my eyes on You and You alone. For You are great...and worthy of ALL praise. I ask that You reignite my passion for You and for Your works that I will not fall. Help me too to not loose sight of You. AMEN!

Monday, October 12, 2009

The Hardest Thing Is To Be Yourself

People say to impress a girl, you gotta go to the most expensive restaurant, the most expensive gifts and all that expensive shit..... But I beg to differ.

Everything is dollars and cents. If you can't afford it, why go to the extent that you're willing to get yourself in a huge debt....And for what? Semata-mata to impress a girl?? Come on!! Reality check please!

If you really love a person and you know that person is still studying (for my age), don't expect too much. And for me, I don't like guys who berlagak want to bring me to Sushi King la Atmosfera la apaka....because I know you can't afford it. You working kah?? Where does your money come from in the first place?? Your dad kan? It's not yours. So don't sebarang spend it like it grows on trees. Your dad worked hard for it and so you must spend wisely. If you earn your own. Well, it's okay. But still, cheaper food tastes a whole lot better than expensive ones.

To me, a perfect lunch (or a perfect dinner) can be at Hui Sing hawker stall eating Kolo Mee/Kueh Chap/Crispy Pork Rice/Laksa etc. Why? First of all, it's cheap. Yes. Dollars and cents do count on dates. Second, not only is it cheap, it's better than any other expensive food. Anyway, is Sarawak delicacy a Spaghetti Bolognaise? No. I believe it is Italian. And so, why eat Italian when you're not even in Italy. Reknowned chefs like Anthony Bourdain hit the streets to get the local and the best cuisine. Not some fancy restaurant. =)

To end this post, I resent guys who impress girls with money. It's pointless. I don't what that from you. I want you to be YOU. Not another plastic stereotype. I may enjoy simple things but I can tell you I don't think in a simple way.


Sunday, October 11, 2009


Don't know what to post since there's no happening'll just post up my cover on Paramore's We Are Broken for you guys to watch. I'm still an amateur so I hope you don't mind my sloppiness. I ain't that big deal of a singer either. But I still hope you guys like it! =D

Pain Is Just A Simple Compromise

I really don't know if I'm choosing the right path. I really don't know what I'm really good at. I just don't know. Oh God, I hope the thing I do now is what You want me to do. Because I feel lost and I feel that I suck at what I'm doing.

Mechanical Engineering...

Why is it so hard?

Now I'm told that this is life, pain is just a simple compromise.

Anyway, stop being so emo!! Hahahaha......cos I'm not. Just thinking bout my studies is freaking me out! Programming....such a tough subject! Many people fail the subject. And the thought that I may fail too is freaking me out!!! I've been spending way too much time hanging out with friends and my dear beloved. And last week was Swinburne's semester break and I went to campus, kononnya mok study la tek. Check2, I online la...lepak la....main game la...all thanks to Arvin who pestered us to have a CS tournament. And yes. I was a gamer. But I repented from that god forsaken tomboy past.

And so, for the past few days, I kept telling myself to turn over a new leaf. Worked a while then I relapsed into lazyness. And told myself to turn over a new leaf....and it goes on and on. And now, I am finally turning over a new leaf for good.....again. Spent this day trying to study and understand C programming. Like I said to Stephen the other day,"I'ma study..for real this time." Cos I kept bumping into him during semester break and he's been asking "What are u up to?" Kept giving him the answer "I'ma study." But I never did. It was a BIG, FAT LIE. LOL.

My blog skin is so emo looking. Haha! I wana make it more...cheery....just like me. =) Always smiling. But when I'm a sour puss, I am a sour puss. I get both extremes. But I'm more cheerful than I am angry or emo. So the blog has to look like the owner. The again, I don't really have the time to sit down and discover the wonders of Photoshop and make my blog look alive! Sighs...........

Okay, gotta sleep! Promised him I'd be sleeping by 1am.
Haha...such puppy love.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Where is my motivation? =(

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Beauty Is Skin Deep

Okay...let's review my desires in life. =)

1. Trusting God.....check and un-check. Cos at times I do, at times I doubt Him.

2. Be active in Extra Curricular Activities.......un-check. I haven't found a club I'm interested to join.

3. Drive.....check.

4. Meet new friends.....check.

5. Get a scholarship.....un-check. Yet to apply for one.

6. Obtain HDs for all subjects. Un-check....but I got good grades. =D

7. Get a boyfriend?...........check. =)

Being a girl, I like makeup. And I enjoy putting on makeup actually. However, I don't use it to campus. I don't see why I should since I think I look much more beautiful without it on. Anyway, I haven't got the time to put it on. And no, I am NOT willing to wake up early just for that. I am not a slave to beauty. Beauty serves me. Sides, I just use makeup cos I love colours. I put it on as art. Not to give myself the illusion that I am more beautiful putting it on. Of course, I use a little bit of lip balm when I look pale but I don't use any other makeup apart from that. Is lip balm even considered a makeup anyway??

What makes a woman beautiful? Even one of the top makeup artist, Bobbi Brown says that you don't need excessive makeup to look beautiful. And I can honestly tell you that all that makeup can't make you beautiful too. Eat right and being happy is the key to beautiful skin actually. All that Botox is not really helping in reducing wrinkles. Hey, I've seen some of my customers when I worked at a cafe early this year. They work at a nearby beauty parlour and some of them, obviously had a face lift...probably used Botox injections. Some of them, their lips were huge! Obviously not their real feature.... They had eyelash extensions and all that. (which made them look like they have camel eyes.) And some did not have very nice skin and tried putting on a lot of makeup to cover it up. But it didn't work.... All of that was not a pretty sight. (Well, some of them looked extraordinarily beautiful!)

I've had guy friends randomly tell me that they prefer girls without makeup on. (Well, they were looking at this girl who uses heavy makeup to campus.) And I've known these guys long enough to tell you that they are sincere and nice guys. Gentlemen too. And who says gentlemen have extincted? They're just right in front of you! It's just a matter of whether they think you're a decent girl to be with or not. =) And one of those guys happen to by my boyfriend. Consider myself blessed. =) You will also know a guy's a nice guy when they find girls who wear shorts repulsive. Just can try and verify it to see if it works. =P

Anyway,'re beautiful just the way you are. You don't have to wear all that makeup and wear shorts just to get a guy to notice you. Trust me on this. If a guy can love you when you're covered up, he truly does love you for who you are and not what you wear. To get a decent guy, be decent. That's all you need. And it IS worth it to be decent. And yes, I am a happy girl who so happens to have a guy like this. =)

I wana end with this cool verse I found in the Bible about a wife of noble character. Read on. =)

The Wife Of Noble Character

A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar. She gets up while it is still night; she provides food for her family and portions for her women servants. She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks. She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night. In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers. She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet. She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. Her husband is respected at the city gate; where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes. She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: "Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all." Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Honor her for all that her hands have done, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Proverbs 31: 10-31

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

The Only Exception

I finally had the chance to sit down and listen to Paramore's new album that I downloaded. Awesome songs I tell ya. And great lyrics. I love this one song, The Only Exception cos it really speaks about me. I actually enjoy being alone and enjoy being single. Only because life is a lot easier that way. No heart aches, no hurts. Just being in my own world and not having to care whether I hurt anyone or got hurt cos there's no one to hurt to begin with. Selfish life but that's how it just is. But it's all changed la.

This is to you, darling. You are my only exception because I love you. =)


When i was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And cursed at the wind
He broke his own heart
And i watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day i promised
Id never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe i know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And i've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know your leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream


You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, And Im on my way to believing.