Fix You

Oh man....this is an awesome cover of Fix You. Sung by a girl!! You gotta check this out...

Wishing

Since my birthday's coming up real soon, I wana put up my wish list. =P I hope it makes it easier for you all to get me a gift. =)


I would like to have.....


CDs of my favorite bands. Paramore and Coldplay would be lovely. Fall Out Boy, The Script and All American Rejects are cool too. Or...if you think a band would be of my liking, I'm okay with it. I like listening to something fresh and new. For Paramore, I specifically want The Final Riot CD/DVD. =D Oh, and Hillsong's new album is alright too.


I love T-shirts. Especially printed ones with interesting quotes on them. Heh. Like my "Don't Trust Your Boyfriend" tee. I love it but I don't believe in it. =P Don't believe what the T--shirt tells you.


I'd love to have that Wireless Microphone but it's costs RM600++ so let's just skip that.


I like accessories. Necklaces are definitely my favorite.

Artsy stuff are cool too. I like things that I can decorate my room with and it can definitely add a memory of you to my room. =)


Strictly no teddy bears. Unless you want me to skin you alive. I may be cute but I don't like cute and furry things lying around in my room.


Hehehehe........please get me one of these...pleeaaasseeeeee................................


*smiles sweetly and flutters eyelashes*

how can you resist that look??

=P

Jamming!

Wow.... I really enjoyed practice just now. Love the jamming session with my musicians Thomas, my brother, Raphael and our latest and definitely staying pianist, Ruby. We are now complete! No need to borrow the 'older' pianists. Now, we all have the same feel, into the same music.....in other words, we are all sama palak.


Well, what we did was jam Taylor Swift's Love Story, punk version. =P The wonders of jamming kan. And we did all that in the CHURCH SANCTUARY, complete with head banging and stuff. Crazy aye? Worldly...so worldy....=P Very rock la....dahlah while we were doing those unrelated-to-practice stuff, people who were gona attend the event at the Parish Centre came to the church and were totally watching us! Bangga la...but malu also........


Sadly, time was limited so we can't jam long enough. Boohoo.....I so love jamming now. I wana jam summore....

Celebrate?

Being able to get through Degree is suppose to be a good thing kan? =)


But when your friends are left behind and you're the only one, it is a sad thing. =(

Sadder still when he didn't make it through with you as well.


So....


Celebrate?


I think not.


=(

Hot Days

Today....woke up kinda early cos I couldn't really sleep. Boohoo.....


So I just did some housework before I got ready to get my results. Yes!! Today is the day I collect my result!! So I go lohh....take my result lohh....and you know what? Of all the subject to fail, I failed Innovation and Change. Yes, the darned Innovation and Change. I feel like I don't have dignity to fail Inno. I accept failing Engineering Physics. I accept failing Engineering Maths (B). But Innovation and Change?? It really caught me off guard. I think it caught EVERYBODY off guard. This time round, the marking is really strict and so, lots of people failed Innovation and Change for the first time in history. I envy those who took the subject last sem.


After taking my results, had lunch with him. Yes, it is something that I missed very much. After that I went home. The day is so frigging hot, sat directly in front of the fan and just watch TV. Actually, I was about to go out with him when my mom told me to go pick up my bro from school. Spoil kan? Oh well. It's not that I get to do that all the time you know. I missed it so much! And when the holidays are over, I'll never see it again. =( Which means, no Leverage, no House, no Two and a Half Men.....oh.... I don't look forward to the day we part, oh TV!


Oh, and I did something to my room. =) When the refurbishment is done, I shall show you my crib. =D Right after that...surprise, surprise....he called me. It just confirms something.


That pretty much sums up this hot day.

Lunch with you isn't enough.


If only it was longer.

Compassion

Whoa...You know how God is so awesome? Lately, I've been thinking of how I can contribute to society through the church and I have thought of something. And in my mind, the word "Compassion" keeps bombarding my mind. And what's weird - or should I say, awesomer is that this year's theme for the 40 Days Fast and Prayer is Love Our Neighbour. And also, I was reminded of this song which.....speaks of compassion and helping people who are less fortunate than we are. Like, WHOA!!! kan?

Solution

It is not a human right
To stare not fight while broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find the mercy for the need

Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession

It is not too far a cry
Too much to try to help the least of these
Politics will not decide if we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Singing...
Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet
Yeah Yeah

Higher than our circumstance
You promised and you loved for all to see
Higher than our protest lines and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet
Whoa Yeah

Only you can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
You erase complete, the sinner's past
And set the captives free

Only you can take the widow's cry
And cause the heart to see
Be the Father to the fatherless
Our Saviour and our King

We will be your hands
We will be your feet
We run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light,
We will you light

We will be your hands
We will be your feet
We run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light,
We will you light

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet

We will run
We will run
We will run with the solution

We will run
We will run
We will run with the solution

We will be your hands
We will be your feet
We run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light,
We will you light we´ll sing

Love Our Neighbour

It's the time of the year again. The time where almost all churches in Malaysia will be praying and fasting for our nation. Yup. It's the annual 40 Days Fast and Prayer season! And this year, I want to take it seriously.

It starts on 22nd July until 30 August, a day before our National Day.


Love Our Neighbour


In case you don't know, this 40 Days Fast and Prayer is organized by the National Evangelical Christian Fellowship (NECF). To know about the history of it's formation, click here.


I love the Christian way of fasting. We don't fast cos of rituals. Except Catholics who fast on Fridays for I don't know why. Anyway, we fast for a purpose and we use the fasting time to pray for something that burdens us. In other words, the time we spend to eat will be used to pray. But fasting isn't confined to food only. Fasting is actually giving up something you LOVE to do so that you can pray for important stuff.


For me, I need to eat cos I'm skinny. I'm really scared of becoming underweight. And so, I thought of another thing to fast. I'm thinking of going on a Facebook fast. Yeah...something that I love to do. But I should go on a full Internet fast. As in, no Facebook, no MSN and no blogging. Ohhh.......susah kan? And replace all those HOURS spent on the Internet to do something better - to pray for Malaysia.


So....
I'm praying for my country.
Are you?

The holidays have got me thinking......

Hey! Check out this cover of Paramore's Decode!

Hey....how come there's no comment for my last post??


This shows how nosy you people in my personal life.


Tsk, tsk, tsk.....

Ke-boring-an, Sila Meng-entertain-kan

Tonight is one of those nights where I can say "It's so hot that I can just wear my bra and underpants and just watch TV."


But I am doing quite the contrary. Hahaha. Easier said than done for me. Right now I am in the living room enjoying the air-cond but dreading my dad banging on the piano. -.-" Well, he's enjoying it so I'll just zip it.


Anyways, what will I blog tonight? Well, I was going through my friend, Melissa's blog and read her post on her top 6 hot guys. The thing is, I don't have any. I am oblivious to the hot guys of Hollywood. They look all the same to me. When I see Hollywood stars, I see how they dress so I guess I'll make my list of Top 5 Most Fashionable People (As According To Christine). It is judged entirely by ME, it is MY own opinion. So I don't need YOU to criticize ME. Well, I sound harsh cos I don't want people flaming me after this. I'm taking this precaution because of my Edward Cullen post last time caused someone to go frantic and totally flamed my blog and pretended to be multiple other people and filled my cbox with utter rubbish and calling me a loser. But seriously, who's the loser here? I envy Edward Cullen. Because he's not as good-looking as Jo Jonas or as sexy as Justin Timberlake but he gets the girls crazy to the extent they want to defame me and probably KILL me for saying he's ugly. But it is fact. You only say he's good looking cos of his dreamy eyes in the movie Twilight. It's all just so cliche. Remember High School Musical? Yeah, Zac Efron got his big hit there. The exact same way how Edward Cullen got his. All except, Zac Efron is more good looking.

Back to topic!


As I was saying....


My list of Top Fashionable People are...


First up...


Katherine Elizabeth Hudson or nama glamour nya....Katy Perry.


Hey, I just like her kinky style. She doesn't really conform to stereotypes so she's definitely one of a kind. Her style is....retro sexy with makeup that is doll-like. Definitely love it! And her body...not the typical stick-like figure of a model. Very sexy and very much coveted by many, I believe. People always look at Rihanna or Beyonce....but never Katy Perry. Sad...but needledd to say, she is beautiful in her own way.


Wonder what's she doing.
Photo courtesy of flickr.com

My next pick is...


A British model who is at the pinnacle of her career and she rules the runway. She walked on the runway for names like Anna Sui, Chanel, Dolce & Gabanna, Stella McCartney and also Versace to name a few. Formerly the face of Burberry...yes, she is none other than Agyness Deyn (her nama glamour also la..but I forgot what's her real name). Her style is definitely that of a rocker chick. That's why I like it. Very laid-back and a style that can be used daily.





After Agyness would be....

Again British. A poised young lady. You know her through the famous novel made into a movie, the Harry Potter series. That's right, it is Emma Watson.


Emma Watson is a very bright young lady and mind you, she is the same age as I am which makes her very, extremely extraordinary. She's also a sportswoman as well. A very accomplished young girl. And to top that off, she is the new face of Burberry.



This is my personal favourite.


These photos were taken from her Teen Vogue photo shoot. She actually consult her own styling. So I must say I love her style. Very classy...very....British. For me, I think if I wana go for dinners and stuff like that, I'd emulate this kinda style. I dig this.



The top of my list goes to......


Gwen Stefani.





What else can I say? She's beautiful.


Here ends my list of Fashionable Women.


=)


Hope you enjoyed it.

You Would Love To Read This

I must admit. I am a bit of a loner. And I do guard my privacy. And I get a bit anxious when people (even my friends) want to come over. Mostly due to the planning involve. My house do have many dwellers. But it is something I have to get over at times. Because I tell myself that I can't always be a loner and keep my privacy all the time. And thankfully, with this thinking, it gives me a fair share of solidarity and having company.


And...the reason for being a little quiet bout my love life is because it is my personal life. So personal life's gotta be personal. And I am trying to keep it personal. Who wants to know the mushy details about it anyway? I mean, if I were to read my friend's blog and reading all the mushy details about her love life.....I would desperately need a plastic bag. To save you from such a thing, I'd prefer to spare you the details.


But there is one thing I need to let out. I fear something....I don't know how to put it in words. Like last time, I was so "in love" or so I thought I was "in love" only to find that I was just the flavor of the month. I was placed in a position where I was so very much hopeful and then....I was left with just hopes and promises and 3 words that actually meant nothing. Of course I was sad. Who wouldn't be? For a day, I just felt like hiding in my room and shed tears but instead, my mother took me out and had no choice but to hold back the sadness that burdened my heart. Worse of all, he didn't even know I was upset because every time we meet, I just smiled and acted like nothing happen. Life just went on normally with us still talking but the hurt just couldn't go away...until I started college that is. But still, seeing him just reminds me that I musn't be foolish and let my feelings get carried away. And so, I still feel the pain but more to shame which acts as a reminder not to repeat such a thing ever again. Also, this kind of thing is enough to shatter my self-esteem even though people tell me I am beautiful and I do think I am beautiful....but...more often than not, the question of "Am I really that beautiful?" does pop up. And I do compare myself with other girls and convincing myself that other girls are much more beautiful than I.



Of course I feel like revenging...who wouldn't? Both parties abusing their good looks for personal gains. But of course, it doesn't make me any better than him. So I don't wana do it. And who says people like me don't get hurt? I decided I don't want to do this to anyone. And so, I'm not playing around. And don't be surprised that it is so difficult for me to say 'I Love You' these days. Because I am SICK of lip service.


To YOU, I hope you're serious cos I don't want you to play around with my feelings. It's enough that I've been hurt once. If only I could read minds, it would be so much easier. But I can't. Sometimes I think you're serious but at times, I think you're just playing with me. So I don't know. I feel like I can't take you seriously at all. Sometimes...ahh....nevermind. I'll stop here.

Gifts

No offense but....


I hate it when people give me gifts that aren't useful. I really don't like things that accumulate dust cos it makes me sneeze a lot and it doesn't look nice.


I like practical gifts. Gifts that I can use. It is those gifts that make me very happy. Unless you know my taste and can find something perfect to decorate my room, it is an exceptional case. You can buy things that aren't useful. But if you don't, just buy me scented soap or scented candles and that's enough to make me happy. Seriously. I like those kind of things. Or maybe a cleanser or what not. Anything that I can use, it makes me happy.


I hate Teddy Bears. They're cute and all but I don't place them in my room. And I DON'T cuddle it all the time and make it a necessary item for me to bring with me when I go traveling. I'm really not that kind of girl. I don't like things going to waste so don't bother buying me a Teddy Bear.


Please, don't waste your money on things that cannot be used. I like to save and make full use of everything.

Factum Per Litteras

I am now a free woman!! Woohooo!!! =D


This marks the end of my Foundation program in Swinburne.


Just now was the most terrifying subject in my whole entire life! Cos the first test which is the Mid-Semester test was so hard, I failed. 10 more marks and I could've passed. I have never been this afraid to fail. Even though last time Add Maths was hard to me, I didn't care cos I attend government school. It didn't matter if I fail cos I don't pay much for school fees. But for Engineering Physics, it's a whole different story. It hard. And worse still, I'm in a private university which means I pay a lot for it. Though my parents aren't paying for it, I still have to maintain my grades in order for Yayasan Sarawak to continue funding me.


Moreover, if I fail the subject, to resit it alone already costs RM300. And if I do fail again for the resit, I have to repeat the subject alone for another semester. Which also means, I have to pay RM1000++ just for that. Meaning to say, I literally CAN'T AFFORD TO FAIL.


And this is actually a good thing. Ever since studying in a private university, I try not to take things for granted. Because if I start doing so, I might have to pay a high price for it. So I can say that studying in a private university is much better than studying in a government one. Cos money is a very strong drive. And it can drive you to do better.


I hear some of my brother's friends saying that studying in a private university (aka Swinburne) only encourages you to play. I beg to differ. It's not true! You pay a lot so you CANNOT afford to fail! This statement is coming from Bumis alright. And I know some Bumis think that they are only confined to government university only because most of us come from middle class families who have moderate incomes so they want to make use of their Bumi status to get into government unis. So they tend to think that they can't get the best and can't afford and hence, there's no hope for entering private uni. It's entirely not true for Swinburne. There is hope for Bumiputeras. In fact, they make Bumis first priority for Yayasan Sarawak loans. You practically don't pay back until you graduate and have a job. But grades have to be maintained in order for them to continue funding you. In a way, Taib's paying for you through Yayasan Sarawak cos the money comes from Sarawak's timber.


So to commemorate my time here in Swinburne, I shall tell you my story of how I got into Swinburne...



Actually I had an offer to go for KML (Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan) but I didn't want it. At the time, I wasn't really ready to leave Kuching and I want to go for private university. But my results wasn't good to get a scholarship to enter a good private uni. So decided to settle for Form 6. I tried to get in to Form 6 but the school authorities just didn't want to encourage me to do so, saying that I have better opportunities to go for local unis if I go for KML. I still didn't want to.


Go home kinda bummed. I had a dilemma. Then the though of Swinburne came to mind. My best friends know that I mati-mati don't want to ever go Swinburne. But at the time, I guess I was desperate. I didn't even know if I could even pay for it. So I just told my parents "Hey, why don't we just take a look? I mean, we don't have to commit to it right? We just eksen2 go just to inquire about the courses available. Who knows? I might have a chance." I just wanted to try push my luck. You never know when you can have a chance.


So after inquiring and showing my results, Azreen (the girl who attended to us) got excited after seeing my results. She said that I am entitled for Yayasan Sarawak's scholarship loan which means that after I graduate, I pay half the total of my loan. Of course, my dad, mom and I were thrilled because I have the opportunity to study in a private uni. Immediately, I signed-up for Swinburne without hesitating cos this is a golden opportunity.


Truly, I do believe that it was divine intervention. I mean, I could've dwelled in the thinking that I have no hope in going for a private university but I obeyed the prompting that God placed in my heart to just go to Swinburne. It takes obedience. When it is God's will, He will make a way for you. In my case, He made a way for me. My parents aren't forking out the money for my course fee. They only paid for the entrance fee which is under RM200. And the rest, was God's providence in the form of Yayasan Sarawak Scholarship Loan.


This is my story. To all Bumis out there, especially Bidayuhs and Ibans, don't give up hope. If you can have the best, go get it. You have Bumiputera status. Make full use of it to get the best. I don't want to settle for places like KML or UiTM. They have lectures in a hall crammed with many students with one lecture and sometimes, a busted air cond. I don't call that a conducive learning environment. At Swinburne, everything is in good condition. You don't have that many people in one class. I've got good lecturers too. Everything there just very canggih....and I am happy that I can be a part of it. And I thank God for the opportunity to be able to study in a good university like Swinburne.


By the way, did you know that our crest has a Swine aka a PIG in it?