Stop Right There!

Last night, Frank, Calvin, Herman (yes, he's back from Russia!), my brother and I went for the weekly Intercession Meeting as they were praying for the Youth Ministry of St. Faith. Really, I was so surprised to see Herman there!


After the prayer meeting, we all went out for supper. We have a new hang out place. Not at Expert RH Plaza nemore. We're now hanging at Lee Cafe (lol...so many Lee Cafe!), somewhere at Tabuan Jaya/Tabuan Laru.... I don't know. They're both the same to me. =P


So we had fellowship as usual. Kinda weird being the only girl there. All because I forgot to tell Elly and I think Gwen "collapsed" on her bed by the time she got home. Suddenly Herman randomly asked all the guys "Got girlfriend or not?". Calvin told us bout his girl, even showed her pic. Frank avoided the topic, typical of him. My bro, said no cause he's too young. (Maybe because his sister's here so he won't say.) The last person to ask was me lah. "Got boyfriend or not?" I proudly said no lah. But this Frank and Calvin Tarang ah..... They both said simultaneously "Got!!!" Swt. I forgive them because they don't know what happened. But Calvin Tarang knew so I was kinda crushed. Then Frank said "Elissa" and I was so..... Aiyoh.. Don't know how to explain. I wished the earth would swallow me up because my brother was there and they're talking about this! (Didn't I tell you all not to talk about it in front of him?) Not that I'm ashamed to talk about my boyfriend in front of my brother (if I had any), it's just that the guy that they were referring to was not the choice that I was proud of. If he was an awesome guy, I'd talk about him and the first person I'd tell will be my brother anyway.


So I told them "Please don't talk about him! It's so....memalukan...." And I forgot what else did I say. But I remembered it was so hard for me to mention his name. I always referred to him as "him" or "that guy". I didn't want to mention his name in front of my brother. And they had no idea how this guy made me close to tears for one whole day. And that I dare not mention cos of my brother's presence. So much for promising myself not to talk about him. Sighs.


How am I suppose to get over it when people keep talking about him to me? First, during band competition, now this. I always remembered Micheal telling me this "If you're over it, you wouldn't be talking about it." Which was very much true. Words of wisdom from my dear brother Micheal. And I have to tell you, that was the last I spoke of the matter because it was then that I decided that I want to get over it. I've poured my heart out, now I just need to let it go and forget about it. Why keep dwelling in the past? It's just gona be a burden. So my first step is to talk about it to someone, tell everything then stop talking about it. Forgive the guy, forgive myself, forgive the third party and let it go and not let it affect the relationship between the people involved. And I hope this shall be my last talking about this for I don't like having depressing posts in my blog anymore.


Before I can do that, I better tell Frank what happened so I won't have to talk about it anymore.


Huhu.....one of my necklace broke! =( It's worse than what happened last night, I tell you. I'm still rather devastated about it.

Random Ramblings

My cousin's into make up blogs. I, on the other hand, think make up is so troublesome and beautiful people needn't wear any make up. Opinions, opinions..don't stone me! But I am very much into people who blog about fashion and share with the world their creations and their finds from thrift stores.


Why is it that when I reply people that "I'm a good girl." they don't believe me? Hmmm... For instance, someone once asked me why I don't want to go for matrics in Labuan and he went on to say is it because I'm scared to get "loose". Then I replied,"No lah...I'm a good girl."


Probably it's the sneaky smile that I gave him while saying that that made him think otherwise.


And.... Swinburne's only about a month away! =D Woohoo~~!!!! All I need to do is wait, have patience, sabar..................... I CANNOT SABAR!!!!

The Superficial World of Fashion

Just looking into my closet, I realized that I have a lot of clothes! And to think that I was complaining that I don't have that many. Sighs. Human beings. In nature, we will never be content.

The pile of shirts is the highest among all. I suddenly feel so guilty. I'm definitely thinking of under-priviledge people who don't get this kind of luxury that I do. I do consider myself very blessed. Anyway, most of them are clothes that I bought over the years. I don't seem to grow much so they still fit. Being skinny does have its benefits but has a lot of cons, I tell you. Just on Sunday one lady from my church commented that I "semakin kecik...". That comment crushed my heart. After countless efforts of stuffing myself and that's what you tell me? That I'm getting skinnier? People, never tell a skinny girl that she's skinny or getting skinnier. The worse is the latter. She will eat and eat I tell you. More than usual (usual being a lot) and it's hazardous to their health. They might even end up obese for they fear being a stick bone. My worse fear is to look anorexic, lose weight and I don't like people thinking that I jaga badan, watching what I eat, that I'm anorexic or whatsoever. It's because I DON'T. I eat PORK almost everyday. Yes, you heard me. EVERYDAY. And I am HEALTHY and I am NOT underweight. PERIOD.


Anyway, back to my topic. Seeing my closet almost full, I decided that I stop buying and start recycling. Style is forever, after all. And I also decided that I shouldn't stick to a certain stereotype of dressing because I can't afford to do so. And if I do want to shop, I'd like to go to 2nd hand shops or thrift stores (if Kuching has one) where I can get clothes for really cheap like.....RM5. Most of them will be old but I'd like to modify them and make it my own.


Reasons why I'm recycling:

1. Money. Money's always the issue. Sighs
2. Latest clothes are darn expensive.
3. I have too many clothes.
   

One of my object for recycling-my skirt that i rarely, i mean, never wear. Cos it's too long. I wana turn it into a dress.

It shall be a dress!

I do hope it turns out well. What with my unprofessional sewing and all. But I have to start somewhere. I was cutting it just now and my mom was saying,"Aiyoh....so sayang that skirt! You always like to cut your clothes! Afterwards don't jadi, how?" I just replied,"Never try, never know Ma.. Adventure bah." Hehe. It's true that I like to cut my clothes. My t-shirts, my skirt...my jeans. Well, I think it's more of a waste for me to keep my skirt and not wear it. It's worth experimenting on it rather than do nothing and keep it to rot. And if I did a mistake that ruined it, I can say that it's worth it because it didn't go to waste as it adds to my experience. It will be my own adventure.


Another pretty lady that I'd like to alter......

From a sweet lady to a party girl

Well, for this... I just want to make it shorter. Cos the length just makes me look old. It's not really a fun dress to wear when long. A shorter length would make it fun. Not too short.... Sweet , decent and fun. Just by a change in length, it can transform from a summer dress to a party dress.


Just some things that I'd like to do in my holidays rather than sleeping in the afternoons. Well, one of my dreams is to be a fashion designer and to own my own label. Not calling it Christine Dior, that's for sure! It's just a dream. If my little projects work out and if it is God's will, I might consider going for it. For now, sticking to engineering to earn some decent cash to live.


Now.....off to my sewing machine!

Err......eheheh. =_="

Cupboard Exposure

Last night, I thought of a great way to keep all my belts, necklace and other accessories in my cupboard. Before this, I had a hard time keeping them nicely and they get tangled up and just looks so messy and unorganized. I just finished organizing all my accessories in my cupboard and I shall share with the world my simple yet effective and affordable way to keep your accessories. Not only will you have ease in looking for your accessories, your cupboard looks great too! And it will be a cupboard that most girls dream to have...

Tada!

First off, you'll need paper clips. And you need to bend it to form an 'S', like this....
















After you've done all that, then you can hang any accessories you want onto any small spaces you can find in your cupboard. As for mine, I have mosquito net covering the cupboard so I hang them onto the small holes. Organize it the way you want it... probably you want all the silvers together or the blacks together, up to you. And voila! You have the almost perfect cupboard you've ever dream of!

Necklaces, bracelets and my belts.

The bangle.

My collection of earrings.
Yet, I rarely wear them.
This is my mother's doing....she bought them for me.

Ahh....The remnants from my belated grandmother.
The ethnic looking bracelets were made by her.
Cool, eh?

And yes, I am showing off. LOL.

Voted Most Stylish

Voted most stylish by E! is......me!!! No lah. Hehe. It's actually Audrey Hepburn.

The beautiful, classy and elegant Audrey Hepburn.

I was watching E! Channel the other day. Yesterday to be exact when my driving instructor didn't show up. It was the Top 25 Most Stylish Celebrities. I must say, Audrey Hepburn is indeed a very stylish woman and very beautiful too.


I was quite surprised that E! voted someone from the 50s but it was a very good choice. In my opinion, Audrey Hepburn is by far better than Marilyn Monroe. Audrey's original while Marilyn's not. Marilyn Monroe is not even her real name and I heard (not too sure whether its true) that Marilyn did some plastic surgery. Audrey is pictured as elegant and poised while Marilyn is always a sex symbol. I think being called poised and elegant more is respectful than being a sex symbol. Being a sex symbol is very demeaning and lacks dignity. And forgettable.


I used to admire Marilyn Monroe with her blonde hair and red lipstick look (which explains why I wanted to cut my hair short last year, I had a craze for that vintage look and I still have that craze) but after getting to know of Audrey Hepburn, I'm more impressed with Audrey than Marilyn. After hearing the life story of Marilyn, all the more I got disgusted. Marilyn's life is indeed a tragic one and nothing happy and not one that you would wish to live.


Anyway, back to Audrey Hepburn. Her style has indeed influenced what women wear from her days till now. She is the pioneer of fashion and she has set a trademark for herself. Really, seeing her pictures, her style is not very different from what we wear today. Except for minor differences....perhaps the style now is more....what I call...edgier.


Well, she has a website, where you can see all her pictures and read her biography. An interesting lady she is. She has a heart for children and a dedicated mother. Sighs.... Beautiful, classy, elegant AND kind hearted. Definitely one of the people that I admire. And definitely someone that everyone wants to be.


Wish Kuching had thrift stores. Well, probably after I'm able to drive legally, I'll go around Kuching to look for one. Be it the Salvation Army 2nd hand shop.....by hook or by crook, I must find some place where I can find cheap clothes. Like......RM2 cheap.


More pictures of Audrey Hepburn......

A scene from "Breakfast at Tiffany's".

Kinda look like Paris Hilton with the squared jaw.

A timeless beauty.

She looks so cute!

Fashion icon.






Now.....where's my little black dress?

Google Me, Baby!

Ever Google-ed yourself? Well, I did. Pathetic much. Blame it on Thomas Chai for giving me that idea....


It all started last year during Christmas, when we were at Carlson's place at the teacher's quarters in St. Thomas. We were preparing for the year end barbecue party. When preparations were made, Thomas went online. That glutton! He was Google-ing himself and some other people. He's perasan much! So that's pretty much where the idea of Google-ing myself came from. I didn't try it till recently cos it totally slipped out of my mind.


Google Guinevere Aring Pakar and you'll get her blog. And I bet if you Google her name now, you'll find this post. Google Anders Cheng and you'll find Anders Cheng. Google Kenny Sia, well... you'll get Kenny Sia of course. Google Christine Dior?
























You get Christian Dior instead. Should've known. Why did I even bother Google-ing myself? =_="


Well, here's a song that I stumbled upon called "Google Me". LOL. Such wonderful coincidence that I wanted to post this post and I heard of this song. Not my favourite type of music but it's relevant to my topic.





If you like it, the official video's out. Click here to see it. Can't embed cos YouTube disabled it.

Under Construction

Wow....my eyes hurt after reading my posts.


Anyway, my blog is undergoing some sort of a "midlife crisis". It needs more "surgery". Apparently it ain't satisfied being beautiful...wants to be ugly again.


LOL. Cut the crap.....


I'll be giving my blog a face lift AGAIN.