Continuation of Utter College Sakainess.

Okay, Allistair told me that I might be spending a lot of money cos Swinburne peeps really dress up fashionably and has the ability to influence you to spend on clothes. My opinion, they're not fashionable. They're just overdressed. xD *i hear the world laughing and an "Oh......no wonnddeeerrrrr* My equation of overdressed people. Overdressed=They're just too damn rich and can buy all the damned clothes they want. Honestly speaking, I'm more fashionable than they are. xD Sounds perasan but I do have a great fashion sense alright. I may look simple at times but simplicity is good. As Coco Chanel says,"Take of the last item you put on." Chanel was definitely trying to imply that we shouldn't put on too many things. =) *can you feel the sarcasm?*


SMK Green Road's Malam Kebudayaan's coming up and I heard the highlight of it all is the band. And heard that they played and performed very well. Good for you all. Sure makes me wana be in band again. But I've had my fill.


Sometimes I hear seniors or those my age complain to me, "Why our band like suddenly so wild?" *actually it was no discipline but I don't like to hear that so I changed it. =P* I just tell them,"It's good what." Why did I say good? Well, it just shows that they know when to play, have fun and when to be serious. I tell you, when you ask them to work, they work and give you EXCELLENT results. When they play, they're just like monkeys. I mean, you can't be serious all the time right? Loosen up lah!


I must say that I love the band now, more than I did the band of the past. The band of the past was albeit boring and mundane but I can't say that I didn't learn anything either cos that will be a lie. The band last time was just too serious in everything, even if we're not "at work". I feel so confined. I feel like I'm pretending to be someone who I'm not. I'm talkative and I like to play. I don't like being serious when I don't think that I need to. Especially for public performances, we're always reminded to 'behave'. We can't even misbehave a bit. I feel as though we're just putting on a mask for the public to see and make them think we're good. So, if ever more seniors come complain to me, I'll say,"Well, at least the band knows when to distinguish work and play." With that sarcastic smile of mine.


I really must thank Kester to make my band the way they are now. During my time in the band, I've always dreamed of being like SJS Band. Cos I knew how they were like. How they are serious when it comes to work and are like monkeys when it comes to play. It was just so fun compared to my then boring band! At times I do feel so lazy and burdened to go for band cos it was boring. And I get scolded even though I make jokes a bit and play a bit during music practice. Sometimes I feel like telling them,"Lighten up a bit lah..." Being in the committee, I thought that maybe I could share what I envisioned my band to be. However and as usual, I wasn't heard. They thought that,"Nah, GR is GR, SJS is SJS." But I'm like (in my brain lah),"HAve you any idea that we are LOST and CLUELESS?? We need help!!!!" I've always felt that we were too proud to ask for help from St. Joseph, we think that we have everything put together when we actually don't. We need a guideline on how a band SHOULD be. And how to make it interesting and instead of begging for people to join, people come join us. And to know how to make a good band, what better way than to ask the veterans themselves-St. Joseph.


I've always dreamed of the day when some SJS people will come to help GRSB. And the day has come. And I am happy that I had the opportunity to be under Kester for awhile. And I tell you, I enjoyed it MORE than my past years in band. And since then, I'm forever loyal to my band and totally hyped up everytime I hear "band". Most of the old seniors didn't really come back but most of us who were under Kester, really enjoyed ourselves and never looked back. Because there was nothing better to look back to.

Utter College Sakai-ness.

I'm so thrilled!! You know why???? I got my first homework!! Engineering Maths!!!! I love Engineering Maths!!!! cos 1) I got homework 2) got better looking guys 3) I'm smart. =)


I'm definitely enjoying my time in Swinburne. Staying back in school, chilling with friends. My first E.M. homework and I'm so thrilled. =P Biasala....so long didn't see homework. I actually missed it! I can't believe I'm saying this! Next thing you now, I'll be complaining of over-burdening assignments, quizzes and tests.... In due time, I will.


Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful..... That's all I can say about Swinburne. I can't wait for the new blocks to be opened! Opening's on the end of August. And Kak Azreen just asked me if I would like to be one of the students to do the Campus Tour. I said ok of course! I want to! PR stuff....I like it. Even though I don't really know the campus yet, I still have enough time to adventure around the whole place. Swinburne ain't that big anyway. Another reason for doing this is to get more testimony for me to get my scholarship. It's definitely a great way to outshine other students and prove that I'm scholarship worthy.


I think I'll be talking a lot bout college this week. Still syok about it bah.... I'll get bored of it. Sure one.


Turning 18 real soon.... It means I'm legal to go clubbing and drink and sign my own forms. Bla, bla, bla. But I hate drinking lah. Really do. I can't stand white wine. Beer's worse. Drinking's not new to me lah... Biasa already. It's not a big thing I tell you. Drink before your legal age and when people say,"cool, you can drink and go clubbing." And I'll say,"Sick of drinking, clubbing ain't healthy. College is. =)"


So stay in school, you young peeps!


Btw, about the handsome dude.... I'm starting to see his flaws already. He somehow looks..........a bit ah beng lah. My mind is happy. My heart is disappointed. Get it? Don't get it? Ask me.

The First

First day of college and I'm already having eyes on someone! Haha! (Actually...to be honest, since Orientation. =P) Well, he's the ONLY good-looking guy that's having the same class as me. Can't blame me for that. Except for General Maths though. How I wish we were in the same class for that..... But I have a great view of him in Engineering Maths. It's not a good thing cos it's just so distracting! How I wish he sit behind me kah.... And I think he's the ONLY good-looking guy in Swinburne. Why do I always end up in schools that are deprived of handsome guys?? Oh well, I suppose God's trying to keep my mind focused on the right thing. =P Hope we're in the same Physics class! (argh! Stop wishing for distractions!!) Then again, the seniors haven't started their class.


I don't like my time-table that's given lah....... My senior told me that it's normal for it to be that way. But I don't like it. It's like, morning got then got long break before the next class, which is at 12.30pm! Such an odd time! And afternoon long break again then at 4.30pm got IT class. Yet another odd time. I went back to college for awhile just to attend that rather insignificant subject. Well, at least tomorrow I've only got one subject. Physics. But again, the time!! 11.30am!! And I just stay there for only one hour! Thankfully my sister can pick me up after work. I don't drive to college ya know.... Even if I had license, I won't be driving to college either. Sucks right? Due to the other cars being un-economical in terms of fuel.


MY Student ID pic so ugly! Blueks!


And I'll be celebrating my birthday with a whole day in class. Hooray...... *with a bored tone* 8.30am to 8pm you know! Don't play-play!

The Happenings

So much happened this week. And I must tell you that I was stressed like gila babi. This week alone, I have to chosse songs for this week's Sunday Service, choose my musicians, choose the readers for the OT reading and the Epistle reading, prepare Bible Study for YF, find ushers for Sunday Service, settle my loan, go for registration and oreiantation. Phew!


I didn't expect this week to be so busy at all. Which explains my absence here. Not that choosing songs and choosing musicians and backup singers were that hard cos I have my usual people to choose from. But.... Suddenly most of them said that they can't make it for practice and some of them have something on in their Uni on Sunday so yeah, I sorta panicked and really had to look for someone else and had to borrow from the main church punya singers and musician.


Plus registration and orientation is his week also. Sighs........ It was okay lah. But on the day of orientation, I woke up with a bad pain in my neck that I can't even lift my head off the pillow. What's worse is that I couldn't even turn my head. The pain just made me wana cry. And knowing that I don't cry so easily, yeah.....It was really painful. I had to tahan the pain to lift my head from the pillow. And to get out off bed, was hell as well. When trying to get off, it somehow strained my neck muscles so I couldn't get off. All in all, it took me half an hour to get out of bed. I woke up at 7.15am. Managed to get off the bed at 7.45am. And Orientation starts at 8.30am. Wow..... I tried massaging my neck myself but I couldn't, got my sis to massage but still hurts. When my mom got home, she massaged and it was the best. After her massage would be a massage using the massage chair. Felt better after that lah except if I turn my neck at a certain position, it hurts. So I was hoping there wouldn't be any vigorous activities which they didn't, thank God!


My Orientation was alright...... Met friends so fast! And the weird thing is most of em are a year older than me. Cos two of them who was from LKW studied a year and their parents suddenly decided that they take Business in Swinburne. The other was from UiTM. Same case. And met some other people as well whom I don't know their names. I just talk to them. And the international students are interesting. We had two Nigerians, a couple of Indonesians, one from Myanmar, one from Tanzania and one from Sri Lanka. Just so cool....


Oh yeah.....during orientation, we met the guy who cycled from LA to Taiping! Yup, I met Tzuo Han. That guy in the ad for hitz.fm. When I first heard Mdm Cindy introduce him, I heard 'Zohan'. And I thought, isn't he that guy that said he cycled from LA to Taiping in hitz.fm? Cos his voice sure sound like it. And then he said he cyled from LA to Taiping in 10 months. Yup, it's definitely him! Weird thing is, when you look at him, he doesn't look very interesting. No, I don't mean good looks or anything but what I mean is that he looks like a guy who doesn't seem to have anything interesting to tell. He just seem like a boring person. But seeing him talking up there, you can tell that he has seen the world and learned many things. What I'm trying to say here is that, sometimes we tend to look at people and conclude that their not interesting or boring. But if we don't take that step to just talk to them and know them, you just never know what adventure they've been through and you wouldn't be inspired to do things that you've never done before. He gave us a funny but a very true piece of advice. "When you want to cycle round the world, never ask you parents." -Tzuo Han. Because we all know very well that our parents would say no.


Stressful as this week may seem, I feel that it made me handle stress very well. I actually got things done. Thought not perfect but I learned from it. I believe God is trying to prepare me for my upcoming busy life in University.


In the midst of my stressful week, I managed to go thrifting. Ah....yes, buying 2nd hand clothes. Never underestimate 2nd hand shops. Being in a 2nd hand shop was like heaven for me! You'll never know what you'll find in there. And I tell you, I got great finds of vintage stuff and some currents trends and also branded stuff for less than RM5. I'll share my findings some other day. Going to a thrift store is so much better than going to a mall where you might get a blouse for RM50+. In a thrift store, you'll get blouse for only RM3, tees for RM2. And they look great. You just need to wash it, that's all. I think I'll be having new clothing items every week! The best part is you're thrifting for a good cause, the place where I thrift is next to Life Book Centre. The money goes to Mission Works all over the world. So people, I encourage you to thrift! Especially you cheap skates and careful spenders out there like me.


That's all for now.

A New Era Has Begun!

Ah.....The new life. Am excited yet nervous. I haven't even got my scholarship loan done yet. Gosh...life in Swinburne. I wonder how it's gona be like. I've already made plans to study from day one. Cos....I can't fail. I can't afford to fail. Literally. Cos if I do, I have to pay RM300 just to re-sit it! When I start school, I don't wana be at home much. Rather stressful to be at home. I wana be in the library or do extra curricular activities, since I want the scholarship. Actually I don't want to be so involved in ECAs but.....for the scholarship, I will!! Sighs.....money is such a powerful motivator.


Imagine if I went to a government Uni where I don't have to pay much. I think I'll take it for granted.Really. *thinks of Form 5* Since I know how much I have to pay for Swinburne, it's a motivation to not screw up! I can't screw up la...Rm300 *gulps!* That's a lot! My parents will kill for my bad results because of the money. And again, money. Money's always the issue isn't it?

Who Needs a Title?

I've not been updating much. My apologies. I don't know why am I apologizing. I doubt it if I have that many readers anyway. But for those who have been faithfully reading my blog, I thank you very much. My recent commenter just makes me feel as though my thoughts are being heard. Thank you haiziyu. =) Whoever you are.....


My not updating has nothing to do with the dress that I said I'd be working on as mentioned in my previous post. For I've not even started sewing. Still trying to figure out how to make it. That's why. But the real reason has to be that I'm just too plain lazy to get to the PC. I've got bored of it already. And kinda sick of being on the PC for long hours once I start. I'm gonna start Uni soon so I'd better kick off that addiction.


Last night, some car passed by my house. Not just any car but a car that pasang loud music. No, it's not the sickening ah beng techno song but it's an old song. I wasn't irritated but I am in awe of the person. I usually get irritated and usually curse the car that plays those ah beng techno songs that sounds more like rubbish to me. And I don't think it's cool. But this car...... I salute him!! I find it cool somehow. It's cool cos it's out of the norm.


And yesterday, I am proud to announce that my mom bought me a copy of Joshua Harris' I Kissed Dating Goodbye. I've been wanting to get the book for years! Since I was like....Form 2! Cos I was so in need to know the principles in a relationship.




Okay, the title is not really what it's all about. It's not to discourage dating. The author called it that cos he took a break from dating to find out what God has to say about relationships. And, he stressed many times in his book that the joy of intimacy is the reward for commitment. This book was an answer to all my questions all these while! It really addresses the issues in dating. In our culture today, people often have a relationship based on physical attraction and romantic feelings without commitment. When referring to physical attraction, we don't just mean sex, we do mean appearance as well. Commitment should be the goal in a relationship. And commitment must come first then the romance. Really interesting facts eh?


I've seen my friends who are in relationships over and over again. And I often ask myself, what's the point of the relationship when you keep ending up hurt and disappointed? If it's such a burden to you, why do you even have one? Some even spend so much time with their boyfriends that I get neglected and I just don't want to hang out with them cos they're not who we knew anymore. And when they broke off, they come to realize that they've got no friends. They didn't maintain the friendships around them. Most of all, I can honestly tell you that my friends who have boyfriends, don't have a chance to know themselves. They don't know what they're capable of, what they like and all sorts of things about themselves. They missed out on that. They really did.


Singleness is a gift from God. And there's a time to be single and a time to be in a relationship and a time to get married. The time to be single is God's gift for us to help us know ourselves and what we're capable of. And most teenagers don't know that. Well, not that I knew this before but one of the reasons for me to be single is that I have so many questions that needs answers and I'm constantly looking, constantly trying to find answers. And what I got was I got to know myself and did things that I never thought that I would do.


This book really helped me to understand what God has to say about relationships. And it really changes my perspective of it. It makes me wana make my relationship very pure. Because pureness is a good thing. Something that not many people can attain. It's really a paradigm shift. I've made my decision to put dating on hold for now because there are some thoughts about relationships that I need to change. I cannot rely on romantic feelings and such for if I do, the relationship will only last as long as the feelings do. I need to know how to make commitments first before the romance. And I tell you, that's hard! Cos the world's telling you a different thing. And friends would encourage otherwise.


And I got Hillsongs Kids! Haha!! But not bad you know... It's for Aunty Adeline's son.

Entering The College Realm

Yes, next week I'll be going to Swinburne for registration and orientation. I wonder how orientation'll be like. And to think I'll be missing GB this week and next week(if I do go for orientation on Saturday). Apalah officer tok....mala jak sik datang! Wahaha!! And the week after next week, I''m officially in college! Woohoo!


I am excited to go to college. Really am. New challenges to face, new place to study and new faces. But I will face bad things too. Like peer pressure and all. I just hope I won't fall into temptations. The good thing is I'm here, close to my family, close to the church I grew up in. That is also an issue. Studying here in Kuching, I lose the opportunity to be independent. I wish I would be going somewhere and to feel how it's like to miss home, to not eat when there's not enough money, to do my own cooking everyday, to go fly on an airplane alone and all that. I miss out on all that! And to study out of Kuching, I can run away from certain things that I face here. Not that I can't be independent or anything...I know how to. Just that I'm never in a situation where I'll be 100% independent. Get what I mean?


To be honest, I don't really wish to take Engineering in Swinburne. I wish I was taking Fashion Design in Lim Kok Wing or Raffles' Design Institute. Oh well, beggars can't be choosers. Anyway, Engineering will give me a better career than Fashion Designing. I have to be practical and think of my future. At least there's a subject called "Product Design" in Mechanical Engineering. At least there's something to do with art in it.


Well, I'm off for now. Gotta get ready cos I'll be out..