Passions

Okay. So I finally decided to seek the magic of the self proclaimed dry skin specialist, Rosken. And I have to say, it worked. I see a significant difference after my first usage.


What made me not pick this body lotion in the first place despite it being well known as the dry skin specialist and having rave reviews from magazines? Simple. It doesn't smell very......perfume. And the packaging doesn't look interesting.


But it works like magic. So I'll have to ignore the smell and the uninteresting packaging for awhile. I need my legs to stop looking like I have neglected it. Smooth and beautiful legs, here I come! =D


Anyway, other than that....this holidays have got me thinking, a lot. For my recent birthday, I had lots of people wishing me happy birthday and thank you all so much by the way. One of them from Anders...he was talking about my fashion line and hope that I will get into it. Ohh.....those dreams I had when I was in secondary school...... I really wonder if they can actually materialize. I've always been a loner when I was in Form 5 and Anders was the one that I truly talked to. So of course, I also shared my hopes and dreams to him.


The thing is....it really got me thinking.....am I just dreaming too much? Seriously, I have lots of dreams of doing music and on the side, put up a fashion line. But now.....I still love music....I still love fashion.....just that, the fashion thing...... I think it's a world filled with plastic. I for one, don't think I can be different. And.......it also got me thinking that.....maybe I'm dreaming too much. Cos right now, I'm barely doing anything about. Music yes. But fashion, no. =(


Apart of me says that I'm just a big dreamer but destined to be a mere engineer. But another part of me tells me that I am born creative and not conforming to anything 'normal'. It also tells me that in this life, we don't have to be what we HAVE to be, which for me...is being an engineer. Sadly, my life at present, tells me that I'm not even taking any initiative of breaking the cycle of laziness and normalities that prevents me from developing my music and also fashion. Also, other duty calls..... Mostly doing church stuff. So okay, I suck at time management. But what can I do? I do spend a handful of time doing music...been jamming and stuff and doing some personal development on the piano but......throughout the holidays, I don't even have a single inspiration for a song! It just plain suck..and now, holidays are almost over..


I gotta do something....salvage every bit of myself that I can gather. Tonight, I shall start coming up with something. Tomorrow, I need to get working on the things that I love to do before it's too late!


Oh...I just remembered that I have to see Abg Zul tomorrow regarding my loan application. Boohoo......so much for kick-starting my passions.