High Maintenance

To be honest.....


I can't wait till my best friend is gone after my foundation studies. She'll be going elsewhere after this and I can't help but feel......relieved.


Not that she's bad or mean...it's just that, she's high maintenance. It's so hard to have a friend like her. The only reason she does not have any other friends is cos I'm the only one who can "maintain" her. And sometimes, I don't think that it's fair that I always have to try and perk up her mood and stuff. Cos she's the one who's always having problems and looking really emo. I mean, I have my own problems but I have Jesus. So my problems don't seem to be such a big deal actually. She's high maintenance not cos I spend lots of money on her but.....I spend a lot of my emotions and time on her. When she was down, I am the one she would turn to sometimes and when she doesn't have anyone to hang out with, I'd hang out with her. And when she was totally depressed one time, I actually went over to her room and tried to pujuk her and spent the whole day with her. High maintenance isn't it?


I don't know why some people just....can't seem to set their heads right. It's not fair for me but nevertheless, she is still my friend. Josef once asked me,"Why are you still hanging with her?" At the time, I really don't know what to say....but it made me think, it made me go..."Yeah....why?" Well, what would Jesus do if you were in my position? Would you just let her go and self-destruct? You wouldn't want that.....cos guilt will haunt you cos you KNOW you could've made a difference. I am trying to make what little difference I can make in her. Even if it means being unable to hang out with people that I like more often. The past few days, I have to admit that I wasn't studying with her but with other people. Being with Josef and the people he hangs around with makes me feel so relieved! With these people, I feel normal cos they're really normal people.


I'm sure you're asking why don't I bring her along. I tried, ok? Just this afternoon she was acting all anti-social but I forced to come anyway. I didn't want her to be alone in her room and sulking. I am pretty disappointed in her though. She didn't say much and on the way back she was just on the phone. It sucks to see her this way cos it was really rude. I know she's having loads of stress dealing with her new place of stay and her recently breaking up with someone who she was about to marry but didn't and Thank God for that! She said she wanted to have a new life. Right now, just seeing her that way, how can she when she can't even start a new life with these friends of mine? How? She can't even make herself comfortable.


And sometimes, her emo-ness can spread to me. -_-"


Well, I don't know but all I know is, I'm gona be one happy, jolly person after she's gone!!


Oh God, when I go to Degree, please, I know you want me to be a kind soul but.....can I not have a friend so high maintenance like this?

Bad Days

Today, I am feeling the after effects of being sick. Yes, I was sick which sucks cos it wasted one day of studying!


Well, what happen was my cousin had a birthday party with a lot of eating. I went home and continued studying. At around 11pm, my stomach was feeling really weird! At first I could hold it, ignored it and continued studying but at last, it became worse so I decided to call it a night and went to bed. Couldn't really sleep though...till at one point I really felt like puking. And puke I did and it was no sleep for me..... I've experienced worse but definitely something that I'd wish would never happen again. However, it did. And so timely during my study break.


Went to the doctor the next morning, which was yesterday. Doc said that it could be food poisoning but unsure cos I'm not having diarrhea. And I was told to eat simple food. Aka porridge!! Nooooo..................... Suffered eating just porridge alone. Eewww!! And after that, I insisted to go to campus. Crazy huh? Yeah, it was. So I go loh....and I realized I look so pale. Bad. And I started feeling uneasy again. Super bad. Thank God Syaza was there so I asked her whether she can send me back. =P Insane I tell ya!


And I can't believe that I went to watch Transformers last night in that condition. Well, I couldn't sell my tic to anyone. Felt only a teeny bit better so I just go. Show was good. Unfortunately, I don't feel good which makes it very unenjoyable. Huhu.... So I need to watch it again. No point watching Star Premier when you're not feeling too good. It just spoils everything.


Today, my appetite's getting better but every time my stomach's filled, I feel like puking. =/ But at least I can still study despite this.


And thank God it's not Swine Flu.

Friends, I need help. My church's gona have something called a Parish Sale and of course, coupons are sold. And I have a few, which hasn't been sold of, not even one. So...can you guys buy from me? RM10 per coupon.

Circus Cover

You're gona love this version of Britney Spear's Circus. Cover by some Korean guys...it's rock of course. Like, duh!

Hols

This holiday, I don't wana work. I wana spend time doing things that I have always wanted to do...like...writing songs and finalize some of the songs I've written. Some of my songs are 'hanging' to this day cos I can't really sit down and think it through. I want to complete any of them that are incomplete. Also, I wana continue trying my luck in making my clothes. After viewing Lala Liu's blog and seeing her own fashion show, it yet again ignited my dream. And I have not forgotten about my online shop. No, not yet.

So I hope to accomplish these things during my hols. I pray that I won't be lazy and waste my time on Facebook but rather, do all these constructive things. Amen!

Next Tuesday night, I'm going to watch the premier of Tranformers 2: Revenge of The Fallen.


Sorry peeps...I know some of you want to watch with me but my siblings got me first. Lagipun, my sister yg bayar bah.... ahahahaaa....mestilah aku maok..


But if you all still wana watch with me, I'd be delighted cos I would definitely wana watch again!

I just wana wish Gio a Happy Birthday!


Dude, you're old!!


HAHA....


Cannot chia you already. My tawaran sudah basi. You didn't want me to chia you yesterday bah...